Tomorrow is my first day scheduled to get back to studying/writing, and surprisingly I am looking forward to it. Or maybe it's not so surprising - after all I was really enjoying it before I deferred. But the truth is that only a few weeks ago I was dreading the thought of it.
As soon as I got pregnant I gave myself permission to quit writing for the first trimester. I knew I'd probably still feel nauseous a bit beyond that even, so I planned to start back mid January. That'd be now. And yes, at 15 weeks pregnant I still feel nauseous, but it is definitely on the improve. And in the past week or so I've started to have a little more energy too - mental energy especially.
So it feels good that I'm going to be getting back into studying now. I am planning to spend the whole year, moreorless, on one subject - Fiction Writing B - which I started last semester. I've already got the lectures, readings and assignments, so I can start now, even though the class doesn't officially start until second semester (ie 2-3 weeks after the baby is due). My aim is to get as much as possible done before the third trimester, and to have the first assignment complete and a draft of the second one ready for workshopping before the baby's born. I'm going to re-do all the reading I did at the beginning of last semester. The lecturer is on maternity leave with her second child this semester, so I'm not thinking she's likely to change the course very much between now and then!
I'm only going to have Sundays to study, and aside from maybe when I'm working on the story I don't plan to do anymore than that - I want to still have some time and energy for Liam, and with working on four days now (and being pregnant) that's limited as it is. I am enrolled in another subject in first semester as well, but I'm expecting to defer from it (on the basis of having a baby due right at the end). I haven't done it yet, because once I do I lose all access to the library etc which I might need for the other subject, and who knows, maybe I will find that by the time uni starts (in March) I am so far advanced on the fiction writing subject that I can do both. But I doubt it.
Either way, I'm looking forward to a day of reading and writing and thinking about writing tomorrow. In fact I can hardly wait.
